My Detour

     Its happened to us all at least once, some of us more. Your heading to your destination and a wrong turn or missed sign results in being lost. Imagine if in that moment of frustration or fear there was a person that you could ask for directions and they knew exactly where you needed to go. Someone who with out judgment or questions could get you back on the right path.

     Earlier this year I was pregnant with our 3^rd child. It was an unplanned and surprising pregnancy. It took me a good 6 weeks to come to a final conclusion, that it must have been meant to be. I waited until I saw my baby’s heart beat on the ultrasound before planning out the next 18 years! Then right before 13 weeks I suffered a miscarriage. I felt completely lost and alone. 

     It was at that time in my life that I knew I had to make a very important decision. Was I going to let the sadness defeat me or was I going to defeat the sadness. I chose to move forward, becoming more thankful for the two healthy children I was already blessed with. I knew that one day if we did have a 3^rd child that I would be able to tell him/her that they were meant for no one else but me. Because if it wasn’t for the loss of that pregnancy we never would have had him/her. That sometimes it’s the prayers we think went unanswered that end up just being the door that was opened instead. 

     It was a detour that even the best of planning could not have seen coming. I found myself lost and confused but to my surprise not alone. I was thankfully able to stop and ask for directions and God knew exactly where I needed to be.



Footprints in the Sand (my favorite poem)



Secrets of a SAHM

I would never consider myself glamorous; rather, I would better describe myself as resourceful. My over-sized purse isn't meant to make a fashion statement. It is my home away from home. How else could I fit Band-Aids, sunscreen, antibacterial gel, keys, wallet, change, wipes, tissues - well, you get the point - into one bag?

 That cute up 'do that you see in the fashion magazines really deserves no admiration. It was only my desperate attempt to get the hair out of my eyes while searching for my son's shoes and chasing my diaper-less daughter through out the house. My make-up only applied because I need to clean the bathroom mirror from the toothpaste that magically appears on it every morning. My 5'5 and 115lb figure is not a product of self discipline or daily workouts. No ladies and gentlemen it is the product of my two children taking the food out of my hand and not being able to sit for a full meal since 2003.

 My glowing summer tan is not from a recent tropical vacation or relaxing tanning booth, no it is from teaching my son for hours to ride his bike while keeping the baby away from the road. That cute summer skirt is not meant to turn head; it is actually a time saving tool when using the bathroom. That's right the once simple 2 minute process that I took for granted is now accompanied by one child banging on the door and the other pulling out the diaper wipes from its container once again! Which will now explain that wonderful fresh clean scent you get when I walk by. No it is not perfume or fancy body spray; it is the cucumber melon baby wipes I find through-out my house during the day.

 By the way did I mention the cute pink top that everyone just loves on me. The top that was once white until my 5 year old threw a red shirt into my white wash and also one size bigger until my husband put it into the dryer. Yet I am not complaining because that means they listened when I asked for help around the house. Then there is my cute new pair of ballerina shoes that I bought for just one reason. The though of one less pair of shoes to tie through out the day!

 That's right, I am a Stay at Home Mom and there is no room in my day to worry about fashion sense when I need to keep my sanity. So next time you pass a mother with a cute outfit and big designer bag with her hair up and a perfect summer tan, when you smell that cucumber melon scent as she glides pass you just remember that the grass isn't always greener on the other side.